Derek couln't handle the "heat" of recovering here at our house so while I took a nap yesterday afternoon he took off for his apartment in No. Ky. Didn't take anything with him, not even his medication, nothing, just took off. God only knows what condition he will be in when I hear from him next.
Our Al-Anon meeting was very good. The topic was expectations and everyone shared about Valentine's Day, what happened with them, good - bad or indifferent. These meetings always amaze me. I felt very strongly that I "had to go" just to get a different perspective on the Derek issues. And I came away with so much insight into how people handle crisis and conflict and yes of course the alcoholic in their lives. It did help me to set the "problem" apart from me and detach myself a little. Tony hadn't been to Al-Anon in many years (his ex-wife is an alcoholic) so it was a real refresher for him and so great to have him there with me.
This morning when I woke up I felt very weapy and Tony said some prayers with me. He always seems to know what will help at the right time. I asked him "how on earth do people deal with kids like Derek" and he answered me, "not very well" and that was the perfect answer.
I help pass out produce at Churchill Downs today at 8:45 so I'd best get moving. Thank God I have something productive to do today and no time to sit and veg and feel sorry for myself.